I'm not vain. I can hope, at least.
Before I ask why then I'm posting all these pictures if I'm not vain, let me explain.
I'm looking through these pictures, and I don't recognize myself. That's not really my nose, those bags under my eyes are not that dark, are they? my skin isn't usually that clear (Thanks, Proactiv!), are those wrinkles always there? Are my eyeballs getting bigger?
I'm thinking about the trauma to my psyche the process of updating my photo causes and am reminded that I've spent well over 10 years avoiding mirrors and photographs. The last image of myself that was really carved into my memory is of a much younger version. I'm dismayed when I look through these photos. It is difficult to find a photo that matches what I think/remember of myself.
Does everyone feel this way? As our bodies age, do our minds not? I certainly think my mind is not the same "age" as when I was a kid, but in a lot of ways, it does still feel like my 20-something mind. Does this change? Certainly our shells do. And I'm thinking of crawling back in mine and hiding some more.
5 comments:
Truthfully, in church last Sunday, Caroline and I were both thinking how beautiful you are. Especially last week, you looked gorgeous. I mean it! You are so pretty! Inside and out.
I hear you sister. I never think the pictures of myself look anything like myself. It is weird. Like the person I look at in the mirror is totally different from the person in front of the camera.
I've given up on ever getting enough rest to get rid of the dark circles/bags under my eyes. I asked santa for a good eye cream for Christmas.
You look lovely.
I think you look crazy fantastic! face and mind.
You are absolutly BEAUTIFUL! It's ok to age gracefully!
My grandmother used to say she would look in the mirror and be so surprised to see this old woman looking at her. She was so young at heart, I could really imagine her shock. When I looked at her all I saw was love.
~Amie S.
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